I am approaching my last day in Mexico more rapidly than I expected. Originally, my last day would be around June 1. It’s never set in stone because it depends on the individual and what they are working on. I am headed home early because I need to have surgery. For over a year I have been suffering from continual ear infections. Once a month, and now once ever two weeks I get an ear infection and it looks like its because I have an enlarged adenoid which is blocking my ear drainage. For at least 6 months the doctors were blaming it on allergies, luckily our new PC Doctor finally decided to check to see what I was allergic to, and as it turns out…nothing!
I am sure you are like…what you’ve been sick? You never said anything??? I don’t like to complain much and mostly what it does is cause pain and some discomfort. The thing that bothers me the most is that I lose all my energy. I am glad this problem happened when I was acting as a volunteer. If I was in the US I would have been fired, either for missing too much work or low performance because I worked through being sick. I am nervous about the surgery but glad to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am tired of always being sick.
So as you can tell I feel like I have to justify why I am leaving. There is a huge part of me that feels like I failed. I only have three more months, why can’t I just suck it up and finish. There are soooo many reasons to stay and just as many reasons to return home. I didn’t make this decision easily but truth be told, I am bored, I have finished all my projects, my kids are on to new and different adventures and I miss my friends and family. It just feels like its time. I did what I needed to do in Mexico and now its time to face reality.
So I write this blog as an explanation…I know a lot of my readers have been following my many adventures and even living vicariously. I am so grateful to my friends and family who have supported me through my service here in Mexico. I named them on FB but I want to give them another shout out!
My family: Mom, Maisie, Mary Jane and Hannah! You guys were a blessing…clothes, Christmas decorations, candy, electronics, school supplies, random shit like Krazy Glue, chocolate, chap stick, salad dressing mix…etc… Most importantly love!
My sorority sisters: Lisa, Crissie, Jenny Lynn, and Lynnae! Coffee!!! Chocolates, Twizzlers, school supplies, owl stuff, Lipton Tea Bags, etc… and again most importantly LOVE! They all have kids and they helped me not only with materials and support but the chocolate, tea and coffee certainly refueled me when I needed it. They are all super busy with their careers and children and I appreciate the support, words of encouragement and love that came with the packages and cards. I LOVED the pictures that came with the packages.
Tiara and Tim! My two bestests Both of them sent me tons of letters and cards along the way and even visited me! Even the most mundane details kept me connected to home. They are the kind of friends who even after not seeing each other for 6 months once we are together it seemed like only yesterday.
I am so grateful for all of the people above and the many other people that prayed for me, sent me words of encouragement through cards, FB or email. I know that what I did at this time of my life is unusual. I left a perfectly good career to work for nothing in a foreign country. I was blessed to be able to do this and I hope that I represented my family, my friends and my country well.
I had an amazing experience in Mexico and I hope that I have shared it with you all effectively. I hope that through my words you have learned about the beauty of my Mexico, the culture, places, people and food!
Years ago I ran across the quote below and decided to live by this definition of success. I hope that at least one person breathed easier because of me… we certainly had a lot of laughs
To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.
Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 – 1882)
I have a lot more to say about Mexico, the places I have visited, the things I will miss and of course the books I have read. So keep checking back!!!
Thanks again…friends and family in both the US and Mexico! Te amo mucho!!